emptied to be filled again

When the river dries up as in the African Savannah,
When grass fades, disappear, and all that is left- dirt and dust,
When trees yield no more leaves, becoming limp- slowly dying,
When animals perish from deficiency, nutrients diminished,
The earth grows a thirst, for birth of life....

The days are long
The days are slow
The days are easily forgotten
The days lethargically spent
A silent scream of frustration within

The bread of life is much needed.

Rain pours out and delivers life again...
The Spirit pours out, rejuvenates a weary soul...
Again this jar of clay filled with living water...

Today's thoughts.

Over and over like a cassette tape on replay, through out my conscious journey; I am consistently thinking about what it means to live in the present moment. I think most of this wonder and curiosity is rooted from wanting every drop out of life. Today I woke up and decided to play a competitive game of ultimate frisbee on a Sunday afternoon at the park. A little over midway of the game I sensed an internal change of attitude creep up on me. No doubt about it, I was arriving to a point of exhaustion and it was a challenge to keep my performance high- but what was interesting is this attitude that crept up on me because it presented to me that I needed to cut back on my effort, slack a little bit, keep it to a minimum, allow myself to become lackadaisical. I know my body is tired but I realize it was also affecting my drive/passion to play my best. The latter does not have to be. I was disgusted by this attitude and I was not going to allow this to swallow me. Something that is very important to me is will, choice and freedom to act according to how I want to handle myself internally when it comes to my attitude and mentality. Why? Because autonomy is a beautiful aspect about living life, it allows for a way we color our lives. And so midway of the game, I decided right then and there, though I was very tired, I was going to apply myself in the best and optimum measure of game play action. It's interesting how God reveals certain truths about ourselves, there's a truth about this experience I think is applicable to a lot of areas in my life.

A character I want to cultivate and have committed myself to is this pursuit to be the best that I can be especially in the arena of challenges- first and foremost the kind of person I am, then naturally flow the kind of quality performance I produce and make that reality by willing to apply myself. This is a true wonder of God- freedom and autonomy is one of many gifts to us. Since love is the meaning to life; to live every drop of life in the present moment needs passion and deliberate will to abide in love. What does this mean? It means to live and operate as a person God intended and fashioned our being to be. To know this means a lot of introspective search for ourselves and seeking God thru it all.